Kevin Gates Sh*t Himself In The Head In 2020: "Crying for help."
— Club Shay Shay (@ClubShayShay) January 29, 2026
"I was so depressed, I just needed something to cope. I didn't want to live. Unc, I done sh*t myself in the head before, I got a bullet in my head Unc. I ain't wanna live, I was f*cked up."- @iamkevingates pic.twitter.com/2tS2XLYTjj
Kevin Gates delivered one of his most raw and personal interviews to date during a recent appearance on Club Shay Shay, opening up about a traumatic childhood assault that he says shaped much of his life, his behavior, and the pain he carried silently for years. The Baton Rouge rapper held nothing back in a conversation that left fans emotional and sparked a massive wave of support across social media.
The Assault That Changed Everything
During the January 28 episode, Gates revealed that he was assaulted as a teenager inside his mother's home. The details were painful to hear, but what hurt just as deeply, Gates shared, was that his mother initially did not believe him. That moment of disbelief stayed with him for years and fueled unresolved pain that later showed up as anger, violence, and self destructive behavior throughout his adulthood.
Gates admitted that for a long time he did not understand how deeply the experience affected him. He described years of burying the trauma, using aggression and street life as coping mechanisms rather than confronting what had actually happened to him. Looking back now, he says the trauma influenced many of his past actions and relationships in ways he could not see at the time.
Breaking Generational Cycles
One of the most powerful moments in the interview came when Gates talked about how confronting his past has helped him break generational cycles within his own family. He explained that he now teaches his children to speak up, trust themselves, and never stay silent when something feels wrong. For a man who spent years unable to talk about his own experience, the commitment to making sure his children never feel that same silence is deeply meaningful.
The interview went beyond the assault. Gates also discussed a childhood premonition that he believes foreshadowed parts of his life, defended a TikTok creator facing public backlash over her divorce, and rejected what he called rap's growing anti streets messaging. Throughout the conversation, he returned to themes of accountability, healing, and the kind of growth that only comes from facing the things you spent your whole life running from.
From Survival Mode To Peace
Now sober and grounded in faith, Gates said his focus is no longer survival but peace. He credited spirituality, family, and self reflection for helping him reach a place of happiness he once thought was impossible. For someone who admitted on camera that he once did not want to live, the transformation is remarkable and serves as proof that healing is possible even after the most devastating experiences.
Fans praised the rapper for his honesty, calling the interview powerful, necessary, and long overdue. For many, it showed a side of Kevin Gates rarely seen. Not just an artist, but a man choosing healing over silence, vulnerability over toughness, and truth over the image that the music industry expects him to maintain. The Club Shay Shay episode is already being called one of the most important hip hop interviews of the year.
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